I knew that for too long I had continued to try diet after diet. I had done low carb, low calorie, low fat. I tried shakes and fasting. I tried vegetarian and gluten-free. I exercised more and ate less. I timed my meals. I tracked my weight, heart rate, calories, moods. I did ALL the things that promised me freedom from being obsessed about food, my weight and my body.

I had even taken the most radical step and had bariatric surgery. I had lost weight but was still obsessed over every bite that went into my mouth. I would spend every waking minute of every day planning my binges. I hide my behaviors from everyone in my life. I exercised for hours a day to account for the binges. I was at greater risk of major complications and death if I didn't change my behaviors as a result of choosing the surgery.